The Dream

I'm sitting at work and I'm feeling physically and emotionally drained at the moment and I'm really not in the mood to be here. I probably shouldn't be composing this blog at work but I have a few things on my mind that I had to get out.

The last couple of weeks have been really hard on me for some reason and the reality of everything is starting to hit me. I'm sure this is why I feel drained at the moment. Anyway, my mother made the comment over the weekend that we went to two funerals in one week...certainly not a happy time.

We finally completed the service for Jim's dad on Saturday May 5th then on Monday May 7th we received word that my mother's aunt had pass away and my mother and I made an emergency trip back home. Aunt Susie was a wonderful woman and she will be missed by all of us. Oh, did I mention this all happened in the middle of finials? I successfully made it through finials, although I'm still waiting for my grade from my business law class.

Our trip back home wasn't all bad though. Mother and I did have one day to ourselves to get in some sightseeing. We walked around the National Zoo, where we really enjoyed watching the pandas and we walked through The Bodies...an exhibit that's traveling all over the U.S. about the human body. This trip I didn't take my camera with me so I borrowed my sister's camera where I did take some photos at the zoo. However, I'm still waiting for my sister to send these pictures to me, and once she does I'll post them here (yes, Stef this is a hint).

Jim was unable to make this trip with us since he doesn't have a lot of leave time. So, he stayed home and took care of all of the animals. I'm sure he felt like he was herding cattle at times since he had our three animals plus my mother's three animals. Jim was such a trooper about it and both mom and I really appreciate him taking care of everyone.

I had the oddest dream last night that has been popping into my head all morning and it's really starting to wear on me. I guess I shouldn't call this a dream...more of a nightmare. I'm not sure why, but I've been having very vivid dreams the last few weeks. For instance last week I had a dream (well, more of nightmare) about my former sister-in-law. I can still clearly remember this dream and I wish I knew why she popped into my head...we never really got along while my ex-husband and I were married. She was a back-stabber and I can't stand back-stabbers....

Anyhow, my dream last night was that I was raped. Yes, you read that correctly...raped. Certainly not the most pleasant of dreams to have. So, I'm sitting at my desk thinking about this dream trying to analyze it, then it dawns on me....I feel raped...at work that is. There have been a few things going on here that have been eating at me and I feel very ostracized these days. That old saying..."it's lonely at the top", fits perfectly for me. Anyhow, I just thought I would throw that out here....

Here's something else that dawned on me yesterday...it's now cheaper to buy a pack of cigarettes then it is for a gallon of gas...just something to ponder.